The most painful goodbyes are the ones which were never expressed. And losing a parent is the worst feeling in the world. November 2016, I lost my nana ji . He was an honest and a beautiful soul. My mother is the eldest daughter in her house and I was the eldest grand child. I was quite close to him. He was above 80 years and had many medical problems. My parents were always by his side to give him strength. We always thought that he will be fine. He fought the battle hard but succumbed to his weak ailing body in the end. My whole family was shattered.
No one was ready for this. I think no one is ever ready to let go of their parents. This sudden loss shook me inside out and made me ponder upon this cycle of life and death. I had recently given birth to my son and he was three months old when my Grandfather passed away. I felt guilty that I was so overwhelmed taking care of my baby that I forgot that there are other people in my life who wanted to be with me. Why didn’t I call him and ask about his health? He lived so close by, why didn’t I take out sometime and go to see him? Never told him how much I adored him. I was shy in showing my love to him.
I still remember the last time I met him, which was 3 weeks before his demise, he told stories about my childhood to my husband. There was a glow on his face when he narrated the funny incidence of making me lick Chawanprash. His eyes were shining brightly when he recalled that I never wanted to leave his house when I was a baby and I made my father drop me to his place in the middle of the night because I was missing him. I wish I could go back in time and re-live those moments again. But, that’s never going to happen.
Parents shield their children from the harsh world. Selflessly they nurture us and in return I think they only want out company. A phone call to say a quick hello or a small get together with them is all they need to thrive. And we children take them for granted. We are so busy in our world that we forget that the people who gave birth to us have been dying to spend time with us. All they need is our love and care and a little attention.
So dear readers, take out sometime from your busy day and call your parents and grandparents . Tell them how much you love them and what they mean to you. Ask them how their day was and tell them how you spent yours. It is very much possible that someday when you want to be with them, they won’t be waiting for you anymore.